week 13

So this is week 13 we think... I am feeling SO much better. I do not have the indegestion that I had before and I am not tired as much. I know that it will not last forever but I love that I don't have to take naps, that I actually have a desire to do something and that I am not ready to yell at my children at any moment.

Amy asked me to play spring vball and I am excited but worried because I always get slower the bigger I get. Not that my body is slower but my mind is slower. It bothers me, because I like to feel normal even though I have this huge ball on my belly.
Before I got pregnant I weighed 134 pounds and wore a size 4/5 now
I weigh 140 pounds and I am up to a size 8/9

Oh how I wish my body would stop getting bigger!

On the good side!

On the good side, my heartburn is nearly gone! YEAH ME! The doctor wouldn't give me a prescription and I was hurt, but now I am better most of the time.

I also have my energy back! I still have to go to bed by 9 every night, but.... I wake up with energy to do stuff... I am so excited to feel good again. I seriously thought that it would last this whole pregnancy since the whole thing is out of whack!

I don't know why I have to be so FAT already! I tried so hard for over a year to be "skinny" and I was getting close to where I wanted to be in size. Then all of a sudden, kaboom! my body got pregnant and over night, literally I started to change. I couldn't figure out why my boobs were so huge again and now my stomach! I am pretty sure that what I thought was muscle in my stomach was just nonsense! It is as if I have never had muscle and never will!
And why oh why is it this time that my butt and thighs have decided that they did not want to stay small but blow up so that I have to buy new clothes.
Every other pregnancy I have only gotten bigger with the belly and a little with the boobs. Is this punishment????

So much gas.....

My hormones or emotions!

I wish I understood why this pregnancy everything seems so much more sensitive to every thing. I cry at everything!! I don't know if it is because I am stressed about the babysitter thing or if it is just my emotions.

I have found something that helps so much with the heartburn, or indigestion or whatever it is! Peppermint. Peppermint anything is so fabulous!!! I have started chewing peppermint gum, I have peppermint lifesavers and I love Christmas candy. I am sure that someone else thought of this, but I am still claiming this as my own idea. Tums didn't work, neither does the hard core heartburn medicine. When I go to the doctor next week, I plan on begging for a prescription but until then I shall eat peppermint like it is going out of style!

I want to feel normal so bad! I want to be happy and skinny and not have heartburn.