So I went to Motherhood Maternity and bought a stupid belly brace. It disgusts me that I have been reduced to wallowing in self-pity. Does anyone have any idea how to make this child stop hurting me? The brace has helped but I am not looking forward to wearing it for 10 more weeks! It itches and it has so many parts to it that it takes 10 minutes to just put it on. Then you spend the whole day adjusting it. Totally not fair. What happened to the easy pregnancy where you just did what you did and then the baby just popped out and you kept doing what you do? I think I want that one back!!!

I take it back!

Joe has helped me out so much! I am sorry that I criticized his lawn mowing ability. Granted he did not do it the way I do it, but he did it. And he did it without complaining and making a big deal. I love you babe! You are trying really hard to make this easier for me!

Dr. visits

So a little update as to the hardest pregnancy I have ever had! Okay so it is still a very easy pregnancy. No real complaints other than I am not invinsible and I cannot do everything! I was doing really well until I went home to Mom and Dad's for the weekend. I mowed thier lawn, with the riding lawnmower, and had cramping and Braxton-Hicks ever since. In fact this whole last week I would suffer through work then come home and lay on my bed and let my kids survive on thier own.

Well I went to the dr. yesterday and I asked him how long this was going to last. He said, "Just keep doing as little as possible and hopefully it will get better." How am I supposed to sit on my butt for two more months? I can barely sit still right now.
Now I have to wait for Joe to mow the lawn, which by the way I have had the job for the last 3 years. AND I have it perfected by the way.
Am I supposed to wait for Joe to help with laundry? And cleaning? SERIOUSLY? We will be living in a house that all of the mess is pushed against the walls, and the laundry will be in a heap in the couch!

I am truly stressed out about this. I am self reliant and really Joe doesn't have a clue how to do these things "right". Which means my way!
In fact I am trying to talk myself out of mowing the lawn right now because it is the first day in forever that it hasn't rained, but I don't know if I want to suffer the consequences of tomorrow?
How do people do this?

PS. I am really freaked out that the baby thing right next to this says that I only have 11 weeks left. Can that be right? I don't think we are ready for this!!!

I dedicate this to Rachel's blog

Rachel's blog stated "If found call Rachel". I am looking for something... My short term memory! I have totally misplaced it and everything that goes into that file pile. I am working and I set something aside to do and in less that 5 minutes I cannot remember what I was supposed to do. Now some of you are saying that this alway happens to you, well it does to me too, but usually if I go back to the place where I started I can remember. But I can't remember where I started! Yesterday I left work with a list of at least 5 things that were SO IMPORTANT that I had to go back on my off day to do. So I get up early, get Cole to school, get Bella ready, drive the 30 minutes to school, AND CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT I NEEDED TO DO. We walked around for 40 minutes before I gave up and went home. What a waste of time. I really do hope I remember what was so important before the time comes when it was supposed to be taken care of. So if anyone finds my short term memory with the piles and piles of stuff in it that I have lost please let me know. A note might be best though, that way I can pin it to MY shirt and will know where to find it.
PS. Dad asked me to do some stuff at the house tomorrow, does anyone remember what it is?

How many months?

So this last week I have been making myself miserable thinking about how I was only 5 months along and that I will start dreading my long miserable pregnancy any day now... Then I realized that for being college educated I sure am not smart. I recognized on my LONG drive down home that months don't have 5 weeks in them and so that means if I am 25 weeks then I am really 6 MONTHS into this pregnancy. I cannot believe that I have been telling everyone that I am 5 months instead of 6. I think that I will just go by weeks, it is easier to add!

So as I go throughout my days I keep having this thought in the back of my head... YOU NEED TO BLOG. I am taking a ton of pictures and our lives are very busy, but I am lazy! I had no idea that it is so hard to sit at a computer and have one train of thought for 5 minutes. Almost impossible!
But here is a thought.... why is it that I sit around whining about how uncomfortable I am, yet I still have not bought any maternity pants. (I have bought 2 shirts by the way) I hoist my incredibly tight pants up every morning, not being to do them up and then wonder throughout the day how can I be so uncomfortable when I still have so far to go. Seriously I have a problem. I cannot let go of the idea that I might still fit in my prepregnancy clothes if I try hard enough. One day its going to happen, I will be down to my last pair of pants and try as hard as I can and can't get them on. Then what? I am stuck wearing....... No idea because I can't bring myself to buy those pants with the big elastic strip at the top. Someone go shopping with me! I need someone to talk me into them. Every time I go to the store I walk by maternity and keep walking! I can't imagine that I am ready to fit into them, am I?

check this thing out! I was looking at maternity pants online and i saw this. I cannot believe what we will do to keep our pants on!

something tragic happened?

i am not sure how to judge this occurrence at my house. I am still trying to decide if I am justified in the change or if something went terribly wrong.
As you know I sat on the couch with my puking daughter for 3 days straight. After this when she decided to start running around and being 3 again, I couldn't get my butt off of that imprinted cushion! Sitting there did something to my can't hold still motivation. I let my house go, I didn't do anything in my yard, and i whined about how bad I hurt. COME ON! How is it that I feel better after moving continuously for 12 hours a day then when I sit on a padded cushion for that long. Something is so sick and wrong.
It took until Wednesday, when I forced myself to change into vball clothes before i started feeling like myself again. So one vball game later I was on the rampage again!
I have planted a garden, weed eated my yard, mowed half my yard, worked and enjoyed every minute of it. So help me this is absolutely crazzzzy!