Newborns

It is such a good thing that newborns are cuddly and make funny faces when they sleep! It so makes up for the endless amount of time that you are up in the middle of the night when you are supposed to be sleeping!

Some nights are good, only up every two hours to nurse then straight back to bed, but then there are those nights, you know those ones, where the sweet smiling angel just looks at you and says with his eyes, "Lets PLAY"!

On one such middle of the night encounter I was walking around the house trying to get him back to sleep, rocking him and whispering sweet nothings in his ear about how tired I was and how wonderful it would be if he would let me go back to sleep, he would screech then stop then do it again. I decided to turn on the light to see what in the world was going on and he stopped screeching and looked at me with the most content look on his face. He wanted to have the lights on so he could PLAY!

I put him in the bouncer and he watched me while I cleaned the kitchen. He was just so content. I was shocked that he went from screeching to absorbing his world. When he was done playing he gave a little squawk and we nursed and he fell right to sleep!

The miracles of Newborns!

I had my dr.'s appt on Thursday where I was told that I was barely a 2 and the head was down a little so I suggested that I be induced that day. My dr. told me a big no, that he wouldn't be around and I said okay when? He told me that I would have to wait until after the holiday weekend and he would schedule it sometime next week if that was okay with me. What does sometime next week mean? Tuesday, or Friday? Did I really have a choice? So I decided that it would be okay because for sure I would have my baby by the due date, cause that is what is supposed to happen isn't it?

What is a due date? It is supposed to be the date in which your baby that you have been carrying for the last 40 weeks comes to you painfully yet joyfully. So what happens when your due date is a crock? A Joke? A number which is there to torture you?
Welcome to my sweet attitude toward due dates.

I still think that they should give you an estimated time range in which your baby might come, but when they give you a date, it is a final number isn't it. Isn't it the number in which you count down to? What happens when you count down to that number and nothing happens.... Then what? You start over? You count backward? You curl in a ball and cry?

So you want to know what I did on my due date? I did not hold my sweet baby in my arms while we tried to adjust to breastfeeding and sleeping and two other kids needing attention. I finished a book, took a shower, did laundry, forced Joe and kids to go to Cabellas for something to do, came home, tried to mow the weeds (they haven't grown back yet), pulled all my dead corn out, cleaned up the weeds the cement guys left, watched Joe play on the motorcycle, cooked dinner and POUTED!!!

did you know that inducing labor is a bunch of crap! There is no way to make your baby come out until he and your fabulous cervix is ready. So why do i keep trying? I mowed my lawn yesterday for 3 hours. I know that is a lot of lawn, but when you are as big as I am and you do not have a self propelled mower, it takes a while. I also used the very bouncy and useful riding mower to do the weeds in the back. Still nothing!!!
I weed eated the day before, I rolled up hoses, then unrolled them, cleaned off my patio, sprayed for bugs, sprayed for weeds.... Still nothing!!!

Hello, I am trying my hardest, how come this sweet baby cannot see that?

Oh and after that I started getting little contractions, got all excited, had the kids pack, then cleaned the entire house, including vacuuming.

NOTHING!!!!!

So I am still huge with a wiggly sweetheart in my belly. I am pretty sure he knows how much better he has it where he is, so he is not in any hurry to get out. I have one week to go before the due date. What is a due date really? How many people really have a baby on thier due date? I think it should be a due time. Somewhere within these two weeks you could have your baby! Maybe then my baby would realize that his mom is ready to have him out and not in anymore!

Last night all I dreamed about were ways to induce myself! I was even on the computer at 5 am searching the web! Did you know that eating pineapple is supposed to help relax something down there that helps with contractions! All of a sudden I feel like eating pineapple, lots of pineapple!!

good news! i think he has dropped, maybe he will come out after all!

Okay, I am taking a big girl pill! No more whining. I love being pregnant! Okay really I love the thought of seeing someone grow up from being so small to so big like my other kids. I love the thought of holding a baby and seeing him smile just because he sees my face. I love the thought of seeing all of the small steps that will happen and being so excited to experience them with Cole and Bella!
I keep talking about how uncomfortable I am and whining and I realized that whining doesn't change things at all.

Will he look like Cole or Bella? What is his personality going to be? Can he be totally different than my totally different children now? How are my other kids going to react to him?

I really can't wait to meet him!

31 weeks

I went to the dr. today and I am still measuring one week bigger than I am. I am still wearing the belly brace and it still sucks. I try to be strong and try not to wear it for a day, but I pay for it the next day. I asked my oh so explanatory dr. what was up with my body and he pointed to my two darlings sitting next to me and said that my ligaments are stretched out and there is nothing that I can do but suffer. He did say again to try to not do to much and as always I laugh on the inside. I have given up mowing the lawn, but I sit in anguish as I am staring at it, hinting, and waiting, and waiting for Joe to find time to do it. I gave up on him with weed eating, he so doesn't understand the finesse of our weedeater and I finished it up for him (really me) the other day. It is so nice to see that part taken care of. It almost killed me but I believe it was worth it.

By the way is it normal for your fingers or toes to randomly go numb and then tingle back to life VERY SLOWLY?