So I am still huge with a wiggly sweetheart in my belly. I am pretty sure he knows how much better he has it where he is, so he is not in any hurry to get out. I have one week to go before the due date. What is a due date really? How many people really have a baby on thier due date? I think it should be a due time. Somewhere within these two weeks you could have your baby! Maybe then my baby would realize that his mom is ready to have him out and not in anymore!

Last night all I dreamed about were ways to induce myself! I was even on the computer at 5 am searching the web! Did you know that eating pineapple is supposed to help relax something down there that helps with contractions! All of a sudden I feel like eating pineapple, lots of pineapple!!

good news! i think he has dropped, maybe he will come out after all!

Okay, I am taking a big girl pill! No more whining. I love being pregnant! Okay really I love the thought of seeing someone grow up from being so small to so big like my other kids. I love the thought of holding a baby and seeing him smile just because he sees my face. I love the thought of seeing all of the small steps that will happen and being so excited to experience them with Cole and Bella!
I keep talking about how uncomfortable I am and whining and I realized that whining doesn't change things at all.

Will he look like Cole or Bella? What is his personality going to be? Can he be totally different than my totally different children now? How are my other kids going to react to him?

I really can't wait to meet him!

31 weeks

I went to the dr. today and I am still measuring one week bigger than I am. I am still wearing the belly brace and it still sucks. I try to be strong and try not to wear it for a day, but I pay for it the next day. I asked my oh so explanatory dr. what was up with my body and he pointed to my two darlings sitting next to me and said that my ligaments are stretched out and there is nothing that I can do but suffer. He did say again to try to not do to much and as always I laugh on the inside. I have given up mowing the lawn, but I sit in anguish as I am staring at it, hinting, and waiting, and waiting for Joe to find time to do it. I gave up on him with weed eating, he so doesn't understand the finesse of our weedeater and I finished it up for him (really me) the other day. It is so nice to see that part taken care of. It almost killed me but I believe it was worth it.

By the way is it normal for your fingers or toes to randomly go numb and then tingle back to life VERY SLOWLY?

So I went to Motherhood Maternity and bought a stupid belly brace. It disgusts me that I have been reduced to wallowing in self-pity. Does anyone have any idea how to make this child stop hurting me? The brace has helped but I am not looking forward to wearing it for 10 more weeks! It itches and it has so many parts to it that it takes 10 minutes to just put it on. Then you spend the whole day adjusting it. Totally not fair. What happened to the easy pregnancy where you just did what you did and then the baby just popped out and you kept doing what you do? I think I want that one back!!!

I take it back!

Joe has helped me out so much! I am sorry that I criticized his lawn mowing ability. Granted he did not do it the way I do it, but he did it. And he did it without complaining and making a big deal. I love you babe! You are trying really hard to make this easier for me!

Dr. visits

So a little update as to the hardest pregnancy I have ever had! Okay so it is still a very easy pregnancy. No real complaints other than I am not invinsible and I cannot do everything! I was doing really well until I went home to Mom and Dad's for the weekend. I mowed thier lawn, with the riding lawnmower, and had cramping and Braxton-Hicks ever since. In fact this whole last week I would suffer through work then come home and lay on my bed and let my kids survive on thier own.

Well I went to the dr. yesterday and I asked him how long this was going to last. He said, "Just keep doing as little as possible and hopefully it will get better." How am I supposed to sit on my butt for two more months? I can barely sit still right now.
Now I have to wait for Joe to mow the lawn, which by the way I have had the job for the last 3 years. AND I have it perfected by the way.
Am I supposed to wait for Joe to help with laundry? And cleaning? SERIOUSLY? We will be living in a house that all of the mess is pushed against the walls, and the laundry will be in a heap in the couch!

I am truly stressed out about this. I am self reliant and really Joe doesn't have a clue how to do these things "right". Which means my way!
In fact I am trying to talk myself out of mowing the lawn right now because it is the first day in forever that it hasn't rained, but I don't know if I want to suffer the consequences of tomorrow?
How do people do this?

PS. I am really freaked out that the baby thing right next to this says that I only have 11 weeks left. Can that be right? I don't think we are ready for this!!!