I think I discovered the answer!

As I have been complaining about everything..... I think I discovered the problem to my ailments. POP! I think the carbonation is making me have heartburn or indigestion and I think that whereas before I could drink caffeination and be fine, right now if I have just a little I stay awake ALL NIGHT LONG!

So good bye Dr. Pepper, I shall surely miss you! You have been such a good companion on those days where I felt like I couldn't take one more 12 year old asking me the same question that ten other 12 year olds just asked.
You have also been such a good companion on those days where I want to sit and relax watching tv and stuff my face with very unhealthy snacks.

Goodbye, my sweet!

Emotions

I am so tired of this already! I am tired, sick, sad, happy, worthless, sore, hopeful, lazy and all within 2 hours. i wish that I could understand what is going on. Today I dropped Cole off at school, turned on the tv for Bella and slept until it was time to pick up Cole. i am exhausted from emotions.
PS I am boycotting everything today!!!

food issues!

So far in this short pregnancy I have already had food aversions. I have not had them before with my other 2 pregnancies. Does this determine the sex of the child? I wonder? So anyway right now I cannot stand seafood, which I used to crave shrimp daily!

and Hidden Valley Ranch dressing. The smell of ranch can permeate an entire house, which I did not know before, and it really makes me sick!

I also heartburn all the time, which I did not have before. I did have heartburn with Bella, but that was when I was so big it was understood.

I have therefore decided that I am having twins! That is the only deductive reasoning that I can think of. This pregnancy is unlike any that I have had before.

Sometimes I wish that I could tell family and friends what is going on. I am not a private person, yet Joe is. It is hard to keep to myself when I want to tell everyone everything. It makes me sad that Tacey cannot share any of this with me, until I am so big everyone knows!

I am also sad that I cannot talk to my children about the beautiful being that is growing inside of me. I know that they will not understand anything, but something might catch on at one point. I love Joe and I try to incorporate his feelings on things into my life, but it is HARD, sometimes when I think outloud and process outloud while he does both inside.

i love you joe.

its all in my head?

So I know that when people aren't really sick but think they are they have all of the symptoms. I feel like I am sooo pregnant and showing all the signs, but I know that I am not. So far my ghost symptoms are: 1. my belly has grown so big that for sure it is a baby, 2. I have heartburn or indigestion or whatever it is, 3. I am so tired that I have no desire to do anything of importance including, cleaning, cooking, laundry....

So in real life I have realized why these things are happening but I still thinkg that they have to do with the baby. Here are the real life answers: 1. I am fat because all of Christmas break I did not get off my butt and ate takeout any chance I got, 2. The heartburn is probably because of all of the takeout and candy that I eat while I sit on my butt, and 3. I have no desire to do anything because.... well I have never had the desire!!

I start playing bball tonight and I am dreading it like someone dreads surgery or a church talk. I hope that I will like it once we start playing, but I know how out of shape I am and how poor of a shot I am. Wish me luck!!

So here goes!

I surprised Joe on Tuesday, when I texted him saying that we were going to have another strain in the family!

I hadn't been feeling well, Monday and Tuesday mornings and my you-know-whats have been hurting!!! So my gut instinct was that I could be prego? I went to the store after work and got a set of two testers. Right when I got home I took a test, wandered away reassuring myself that I was overthinking things. About 5 minutes later I came back and WOW it said pregnant. I then went NO? The thing must be wrong!
Just in case I texted Joe, who is in LA this week. I explained our dilemna and he texted me back almost immediately shocked as I was.

I took another test later that night, and in less that a minute it showed pregnant again.
Joe is completely amazing about this. We were both surprised by this amazing gift, but we are excited to see what amazing person we have created.

I know the Heavenly Father gave us this opportunity for a reason, and I cannot wait to see how our lives are affected for the better. How Amazing!!